Heroines Breast How Can I Safely Explore If I'm Bisexual?

How Can I Safely Explore if I'm Bisexual? - heroines breast

I am a very attractive 50 years, ultra-feminine woman who has had sex with men.
Recently, I decided that a novel, spontaneously introduced, but a scene with my heroine must be removed before another woman to write. I was so excited about this, I could not concentrate on anything. I decided there was nothing wrong with searching for lesbian clips on YouTube, which I had never done before, and found them very, very exciting.
I'm confused, because I'm not really attracted to women. I feel rejected by genital contact, but I'm either a very feminine woman caressed my breasts and excited to find. It would be really nice.
How can I safely explore that side of me? I do not want to go and collect Gay placThis is probably because Freak Out, and could refuse to me what could be a really wonderful part of life.
I'm running out of space, so I'll ask: What can I do?